identity.

I should've been at school today but I over slept.  I woke up 5 minutes after I should have been gone already.

I'm having a small crisis with school.  I love doing hair, it's aweosme.  I love having people leave happy.  It's a great feeling.  But I'm not like a lot of the girls I go to school with, and it's making me wonder if I've gotten into the wrong profession.  They get up ridiculously early (5:30), do their hair (wash, blowdry, and curled or flatironed), get dressed (something different everyday), and do their make up (waaaay too much).  I roll out of bed at the last possible minute (7:15) , put clothes on (from yesterday), I shower and spray my hair with dry shampoo (for the 4th day) and maybe put on make up when I get to school (but probably not).  I'd rather go to a bar and watch UFC then go to a club and dance.  I watch Tombstone as opposed to Made of Honor.  I listen to Brian Setzer instead of Lady Gaga.  I drink beer or whiskey instead of cosmos or vodka.  I feel like I don't fit in with them.  Not that I have no friends there, I do.  Just not that many.

A lot of my problem is that I feel very far behind because I missed so much (I know, and I missed today).  I've just never been good at school.  I always wanted to be done before I even started, and the fact I'm behind is not helping.  Then there's the simple fact that, I just don't want to go!  The same thing happened to me with art, I really enjoyed it, I was good at it, I wanted to go to school for it, and then I just totally lost interest.  I never finish anything.  The only thing in years I've finished was marrying Andrew.

I don't know.  I feel like I'm having an identity crisis.  At my core I know who I am.  But I'm in between.  And restless.