accent your positive, delete your negative.

You know what I'm tired of?  Everyone at school being so negative.  Well, really it's only one person at school being negative, but most everyone else annoys me somehow.  The Negative Nancy is my friend.  But sometimes I find myself having to restrain myself from punching her in the face.  She always has a problem, and it's always more important than anything else you may be doing.

Sometimes I wonder if I got into the wrong profession.  I'm good it, don't get me wrong.  But as far as the personality...  No.  I'm not loud, I'm not rude, I'm not catty.  I do gossip to Andrew about them when I get home, but I don't gossip at school.  And then looks.  Most of the girls come to school wearing sky high heels, a size 2 short dress, hair teased within an inch of it's life, and tons of make up.  Not that there is anything wrong with that.  There's isn't.  Most of them look fabulous (though some miss the mark), and it is a fashionable industry.  I come into school wearing a size 12 dress, flat shoes (now my new ones!), no make up, hair a mess...  I don't know.  We did a personality thing is class one day with beads.  Everyone else's beads were the same.  Mine were the opposite.  It made me feel weird.  Like I didn't belong there.

And now I'm extra frustrated.  August 20th is on Friday, which was my original graduation date.  In Freshman Phase I was there everyday.  I maybe missed once.  I started missing a lot in Junior.  I've taken two Leaves of Absence which has pushed my date back to October 19th.  First I got married, which I only took a week off for but that turned into a month because I got sick.  Then I took another leave 'cause I got sick and was gone for about a month.  I mean, I knew it would happen but it's so frustrating to watch everyone that started with me graduate... One by one.  When I got back after the last leave there were 6 left.  From 19.  Heather graduates tomorrow.  Ashley D. on Thursday.  Ashley C. and Amy the beginning of next week.  Natalie a few days after.  Then Kayla.  Then Charles mid-September.  Then Erin.  Then me.  October 19th.

I am getting plenty of time to do requirements.  And since I've taken an LOA I qualify to come on Saturdays.  Also, since I'll get more time on the floor with instructors I won't feel so nervous when I do get into a salon.

I feel like it's never going to end.  I'm trying to stay positive, but it's so hard.  All I can do is keep going...